有你的日子，第365天

Happy 1 year anniversary dear! 

Time pass fast. Its already our 365 days together. I'm glad we've pull through all the down moments we had but of course we have more happy moments together. 

I love you dear. 

Yours truly,

Ashlyn.

有你的日子，第344天

有你的日子，第339天

Been about 2 weeks since i last blogged. Month of November, not a very good month. A month that i'm not very happy.

Wanted to blog about the day, we went to Barrage for kite flying, on our 11th month. But.. Kind of not in the mood. Just feel like updating this little space of mine. So wanting to say everything out. But at the same time, i find it pointless.

Happy 11th month dear. Though this month ain't a happy month. 

December is here. Last lap of 2010. Time flies.. 2011 is coming.. 

What should i do tmr afternoon? I want to have sometime alone. So that i can have some quiet time. But at the same time i don't want to be alone & do nothing. What should i do? 

Signing off,

Ashlyn 01:44AM, 01DEC2010.

有你的日子，第320天

Time check : 1.46AM.  &  I'm still not asleep. Despite that i didn't really sleep the previous night, went straight to school & work after school. Amazingly, i'm not very sleepy. I don't know why.

These days, things & feelings ain't very positive. I know, whatever i'm doing now, may ruin this relationship one day. Which i don't want to. But there are just something that i can't say it out. I don't know why.

Jena enlighten me alot today. With a long msg she send me, i kind of agree with it. This is what she sent me.
"Relationship comes in pieces.& this is what that pieced you up to be whole again. Compromising is important in a relationship & what it takes is to have a balance in everything you're commitment. I read a book about relationship before & i was enlightened by it. Women think emotionally & guys think practically. Just like how men tend to focus on one problem at a time, they also come to understand & consider problems one piece at a time. They are prone to fail appreciate subtleties that can be crucial to successful solution because they look as a whole & often miss out the small slightest thing that triggers the problem from the start. Whereas, women are born sensitive & we have stronger emotions that sometimes will be too overwhelming. We take care of little things too much till it hurts even when we think about how to mend it. Being alone is hard enough because human tends to not know what they want. So now, being in a relationship, is going to double this because whatever you do, it involved 2 lifestyles & habit. Don't be sad, don't be angry. Use this time wisely to cool down, hear each other out & think through & solve it. Said easier than done. But if no one gonna take the first step, who will? Be strong, be positive & compromise. I'll be your lending ear, secret memo & friends forever."

I've said nothing to her about what's happening. But from what she sees from our Facebook status, she seems to know whats going on. Everytime i'm down, her advise always lighten me abit. I'm really glad that i known her in this life. Thank you Jena.

Yes, boyfriend took the first step in talking to me. But i'm still the same. Kept quiet. Because my thoughts are fighting inside me. Because i'll break down if i start talking. Because i can't control my emotion. As much as i want to talk. I can't. As i've said, theres something in me that i should have let it out. But I just can't.
& i know, he always look at the big picture of everything.
I can only say that its good to look at the big picture of everything. But, sometimes i do feel that my feelings were neglected. At least, from  my point of view, from how i feel.

Reached home after work, & i saw boyfriend posted picture of us when we went for our first kite flying together. & its like a cooling pill. My heart softened, & i literally smiled in front of my lappy while looking at the photo.

Then i opened the folder that contains all our photos. Sweet memories together, i still feel the sweetness & as i click to the next photo, i smiled as i remembered the times we spent.

Before we're together, My virgin experience hitting the club.

Our first outing after we're together. Just the 2 of us. 

The first surprise gift you gave on the last day of 2009.

Our first outing that we can actually spend the whole day together.

 As its very rare for us to have days like that.

Our first month anniversary. Sentosa to fulfil my wish.

Our first trip to Malaysia.

Airport. On my birthday. Its the first time that you're celebrating my birthday with me.

Our first 3D movie.

Our first trip to USS.

Our first kite flying session together with our very first kite.

Our first Halloween at Sentosa. First time you watched horror movie with me.

There's many first time spent together. I miss the times we spend together. I miss us. I miss you dear. 

Alright, hitting 3am already. Shall sleep now. Goodnight. 

有你的日子，第310天

Its the start of November already. Time really really files. 2 more month to the end of 2010.  How fast. Also 2 more month, dear & me 1 year together already. Happy time files. & really, i'm happy this year. Ups & downs, but i'm still happy.

Was looking through my email & i saw this draft i saved long time ago. Its a story i've probably put up before/ show before. Its meaningful, thats why i always kept that story. I shall put it up again this time. Its kind of wordy. If you don't want to read, wait for my next post which is coming up soon(hopefully). 

The story goes like this...

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and

said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again

I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know

what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She

didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, "why?"

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks

and shouted at me, "you are not a man!"

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she

wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly

give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl

called Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated

that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She

glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten

years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her

wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had

said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to

see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce

which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer

now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something

at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell

asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When

I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care

so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want

anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She

requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible.. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's

time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage..

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to

recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She

requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our

bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy.

Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I

told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and

thought it was absurd. "No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face

the divorce", she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was

explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms.

His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the

sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my

arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; "don't tell our son about the

divorce." I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the

door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my

chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I

hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was

not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was

graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered

what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy

returning... This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was

growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her

as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few

dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses

have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that

was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me; she

had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.

Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the

moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his

father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life.

My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I

turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this

last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through

the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and

naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held

her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I

drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.

I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs.

Dew opened the door and I said to her, "Sorry, Dew, I do not want the

divorce anymore."

She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. "Do you have a

fever?", She said. I moved her hand off my head. "Sorry, Dew", I said, "I won't

divorce". My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't

value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any

more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding

day I am supposed to hold her until death does us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up.. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the

floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The

salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote:

'I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart'

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship.

It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank balance that

matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot

give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you, but if you do, you

just might save a marriage.

Relationships are made not to exploit, not to be broken.

Next post, i'll update on my trip to Sentosa Spooktacular event with dear ( First ever Halloween event with boyfriend & it really scares the hell out of him ). I'll do it when i really have free time. 

Stay tune..

有你的日子，第303天

Been weeks since i update my blog. Too lazy, not much of a rest time for me ever since my school start last week. School, work, school, work, meet up with boyfriend. Ain't much of rest time for me but i like it this way. I like it that i have a busy schedule. Cause it leaves me no time to think about stuffs.

Nothing to do today, after school went to fetch nephew & home. Tired but i don't like. School ended late, so didn't replace anyone. Boyfriend not with me also. Sigh.
Have nothing to do now. So came to have a short post.

Its our 10th month in a few hour time..

Facts about Pisces.

• The worst quality about Pisces: hypersensitivity.
• The best quality about Pisces: Sympathy.

• Boys never realize how can one little thing can upset a girl.
• Its really hard to make a decision when you're too tired to hold on, but too in love to let go.
• Life is ironic. It takes sadness to know what happiness is, noise to appreciate silence and absence to value presence.

有你的日子，第285天

Wanted to update yesterday after i'm back from my kite flying session. But... My eyes were too heavy, so dropped the idea of it.

6th Oct 2010, set my alarm at 8am but i only woke up at 9am. Wake dear up but after he answer the call, i know he confirm go back sleep. Planned was he'll travel over to Bishan & we'll have LJS breakfast. But, this plan never carry out(Which i expected much).

So i get prepared & trained over to Jurong. Took a cab from Jurong East to dear's place as i'm kind of lazy to take a bus. Went out only at about 1plus in the afternoon. Went to buy a kite. Got one at his house area, Mickey Mouse on it. Haha.
Meet up with Zhengyi, ZhiMing, ZhiMing's gf & his gf's brother.
Went Teh Tarik to eat before heading to take train.

Trained to Marina Bay & took a bus to Marina Barrage. By then its already 4plus. Dear & me went to buy another kite at Barrage. A bat kite. Then we start flying our kites.

It was seriously my first time flying kite. From what i remembered, i didn't did that before. Lol.
My bro-in-law said that even idiot will know how to fly kite at Barrage. Why? Cause the wind is very strong there. Haha.
& indeed, true enough, even idiot will know. When dear tries to teach me how to do it, the kite fly up straight. Lol.I was holding on to the bat kite while dear holds on to the Mickey Mouse one. Cause he like that Mickey. Lol. After 30-45mins, bring back the kite & accompany dear to the shop again, to buy another string. Cause his Mickey Mouse had problem flying up in the sky. Lol.
Come back from buying the things, accidentally release the string too fast & the string got tangled up.

Spent my evening untangled the string. But in the end, i gave up eventually. Pack up & off we go.
Went to Marina Square's Hongkong cafe to eat & after that went to arcade to look around for awhile.

Dear send me home after that, waited for me to shower & then i drive him back home.
Only little pictures was taken. Plan to take many many pictures. Starting from having breakfast together with dear. But things didn't go on plan. Kind of off mood for awhile. & so, only took out my camera at Barrage. But busy with flying kite & untangle the string, no time to take pictures. & didn't take picture with dear also! ): Been such a long time since we have new photos together.

 Dear with his Micky Mouse kite. Trying to attach the string to the kite while waiting for them

 This is our bat kite. I kind of like this. Damn cool! Haha.

 Me flying the kite. Spot the bat kite?

 Messy hair. Because of the wind

 Love the color of the sky. Beautiful.

 The tangled string that make me spend my evening doing it.

 Zhengyi's stingray kite

 Spring roll. Ordered 3plate of this

 My peach ice blend.

 Dear's milk tea

 Dear's bake cheese black pepper chicken

My bake cheese chicken spagetti.

& so.. After 4 days off, i'm back to work on 07 Oct 2010.

Went to Amk to get KOI before taking bus to work. Then dear was stationed at AMK for work today. & he came to KOI to find me while he is having his break. Accompanied me to wait for bus. (:

Work was quite normal. After work, went Mac to eat with Meifern, Aidil, Sham, Halim, Amir, Darwina, Ibrahim. After eating, chat for awhile & went off. Sham accompanied me to the bus stop & also accompanied me to wait for bus. Physically tired. So shiok to lie on my bed. 

Alright, 3.11am now. Shall go sleep now. Goodnight all. 

有你的日子，第282天

Alright. Been such a long time since I last update.

Okay.. My life nowadays been work, dear & work.
My result was released on the 28th of September.

This is my Year1 Sem1 result! & sad to say, i'm not really happy about it. My computing maths, i find the paper easy. But i got C+. Programming Essentials, I almost give up halfway while doing the paper. I seriously write crap in & all with one or two lines of codes. & I got B! So weird can.
All B's & C's, no A's. Got to do better. GPA, 3.05. A good start i guess. But of course, it can be better.

Mmms.. Will be on off until Wednesday. Initial plan was to go Genting with dear. But my dad disapprove. Stayed in Singapore then.
Sunday, 3rd of Oct, met dear at Plaza Sing, meet up with his classmate & lunch at Manhattan Fish Market. Farewell lunch for his friend, Kovin.

& seriously i'll never choose to go Manhattan Fish Market to eat unless i really have to choice. The food, average. I'll choose Fish & Co. The service, sucks! Cannot make it sia! I asked for a tomato for 3 times then they bring it to my table. Requested for another straw for 2 times & they forgot all about it. & best part is, its not even full house in the restaurant. I don't know why can't they remember things. Though always need to wait for the food at Fish & Co. for sometime but at least when we request something, they do it immediately. & they apologised when they know that we've been waiting for our food for very long.
Okay, enough of ranting.

After eating, went to Suntec, Career fair to pass dear's colleague something & went to walk around. A wine fair outside Carrefour & decided to drink for the night. Bought 1 red wine & 2 sparkling wine. Went back to my house & pack my barrang barrang & then head back to dear's house to rest. As he is having bad flu.

Woke up at about 10plus? Had dinner & waited for Zhengyi, Zhiming(If i didn't remember his name wrongly) & his girlfriend. Went over to Batok & watched them play bowling. After that, went to Gombak to eat prata & head back to dear's place. Stayover.

Opened the red wine & 1 sparkling wine to drink. Didn't manage to finish it off. Cause was quite full & sleepy.

Monday, planned was to go Sentosa to the beach for suntan & relax. But last minute, dear had to help out with his parents at work. So plan cancelled. Though in the end, dear didn't went to help out.. Stayed at his house the whole day, watching online show.

At night, went to IMM to have Pepper Lunch for dinner & walked around. Finally i got myself a new mascara. :)
Head back to his house, watch online show again. Then dear send me back home.

Planned to go Sentosa tmr. Hopefully plan is gonna be carried out.
Ohya, wanted to change font for my blog. Should i continue to use this font or change to Tahoma?

- Pisces, are natural actors as they havce the ability to put themselves in someone else's shoes & experience what they are feeling.

- People born in the Pisces sign are usually full-faced, with placid, sleepy eyes, & are inclined to be round-shouldered.

- As a Pisces your decision making can be a little bit off at times, especially when it comes to romantic relationships.

有你的日子，第274天

Its been such a long time since i update this lovely place of mine. ( Actually i still like Livejournal. I don't know why, it just gives me peaceful feeling when i visit there. =x But the template, i don't know how to edit.)

Since i've nothing to do now ( Dear at my house now, playing Mahjong with my parents & 3rd sister while i used com.), I shall update my blog.

Just a short post i guess.
My everyday life... Just normal? Lol. Been working almost everyday, am undergoing Oscar 2 training now.
Other than that, meeting dear of course. Life's good with dear. (:

Today, celebrate my nephew's birthday. Actual day is 28th Sept but because everyone got to work & school, so decided to have an advanced celebration.
Trained over to dear's house in the afternoon & when i reach, dear cooked porridge, luncheon meat, scrambled egg to eat for our brunch (: Simple meal but sweet ;D

Then slack abit & head out to Bishan. Want to cut my hair & my sis helped me to book appointment at JeanYip. So went there to have my hair cut & dear went other place to cut his hair, as he finds JeanYip is quite expensive. For me, i don't have to pay for anything cause i'm using my sister's hair package. If not for the package, i won't go there for hair cut. Cause i find it expensive too =x

Trimmed my hair & cut my fringe. Say hello to bangs! (: I have toot & round face now! So do dear! Haha. He also have toot toot face now =x
After cutting my hair, drive back to my house. Ate & cut cake.
Webcam just now a little bit.

 Me with my nephews & one of his friend.

& now... My dearest boyfriend is playing Mahjong with my parents & 3rd sister.
Hitting 1am soon & boyfriend got work in the morning! Hopefully he can wake up on time.
& last by not least......

Happy 9th Month Anniversary, my dearest boyfriend! :)

Although i always says dear that he is bad & stuff, but dear you know its not from my heart. 

You've always been good & you're the greatest boyfriend i had. I love you so much dear! 

With all my heart! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Shall end my post with some facts about Pisces. (These are found in twitter, ZodiacFacts.)

-As a #Pisces your charm, humanity and sympathy open the gates of opportunity for you.

-A #Pisces so desperately want to do the right thing, but as a rule, you don't have strong willpower.

-Never loud, a #Pisces they have a sweet nature that put others first.

有你的日子，第255天

Today dear didn't went to work. As he was feeling exhausted. I woke up, feeling kind of unwell. Nose kind of hurt. Prepared myself & went over to dear's house. When i reach, he was still sleeping. Used his com awhile before i start studying. Study halfway, i fall asleep. I was quite sleepy. Which i don't know why.

Then dear woke me up. Went downstairs to help him pack prata back. While waiting for prata, suddenly headache hit me. I thought for awhile only. Continued to study after that. Suddenly my forehead hurts alot. It kind of feel like it tighten up. Then dear came into the room after playing his game, ask me eat panadol & rest abit. Ate & tried to rest. But then kind of awake though was abit of physically tired.

Watched show & then went downstair to buy some snacks. Continued to study until dinner time. His mom cooked. After dinner, continue for a little while & stopped already. Cannot go in anymore. Shall continue tmr.

Was craving for KOI. Waited for dear to shower & then head to amk to buy KOI. But before that, we watched video on youtube & was out late. So no KOI for me ):
End up, went to Serangoon Garden for some small bites.
We ordered drinks, root beer for dear & mango smoothies for me. Waffles with ice cream & Onion rings too.
But.. guess what..

Haha. They only total up our drinks but not our food. How blur can the people there be. Haha. 

Back home after that. 

Alright, shall sleep soon. Last paper tmr! Please please java, let us score!! I don't want fail any module & go for sub paper. Very sian one!! 

& 7th month over already. One month pass so fast.

Goodnight all.

有你的日子，第254天

Just finish my refreshing shower & settled down in front of the com, updating my blog. & i found many many mooncakes in my house...

IWAD paper today. Woke up in the morning, flip through notes abit & prepared to go school about 1plus. Head out of house about 2plus. Paper was pretty easy. But i think i'll die at the last 2 questions. Javascript questions are my weakest. But at least i wrote something down. I didn't leave it blank. Hopefully i get some marks from there. This paper, is not a matter of pass or fail. Is a matter of getting an A or B.

Finished the paper using less than 2hours. About 15mins before the end of paper, i left. Finally 3 papers down! Left with the last one on Wednesday, Programming. ): Waited outside for Janice & co. to come out. Discussed about the questions & all then walked out of school together. Trained with Janice to Yishun. As she is also going to Yishun to take a bus home. While i went to find dear. Waited for him to finish work. Didn't know what to eat for dinner. End up, head back to his house for dinner.

& dear send me home at about 12plus. Despite him being so tired. Thank you dear (:
No matter what, i still love you much!

Shall head to bed soon..
Goodnight all.

有你的日子，第253天

*Burps* I've so full now! Finished showering & here i am updating my blog. Somehow, i still like livejournal. So feel like changing back to livejournal. But lazy. Keep on change. This blog not even one year old lo. Okay, random. =x

Saturday, 4th Sept 2010. 

Dear coming back from Hongkong!!! Like finally after 2weeks! Stayed home the whole day & went out about 10pm. Trained to Changi Airport. Meet up with his sister at the exit of train station. Walked to Terminal 1, arrival place to wait. We sat down at one of the shop there. Awhile later, his parents & brother came. Initially his parents were not going to fetch him. I only knew it before i was about to leave house. 

So waited, & dear came out. After that back to his house. I stayed over. Unpacked his stuff & dear got me Burberry Weekend. 

Thank you dear (:

Sunday, 5th Sept 2010

Woke up about 12plus? Actually i woke up earlier. About 10? In the middle of the night keep on wake up. Cause it rained. & it was cold. Use com awhile & fall asleep again. Until 11plus or 12plus. Dear wake up. Cooked maggie to eat. Rest abit & prepared to go out about 4pm. Went over to his friend's place to pass some stuff to his friend & then drive to Amk hub. Go get our tickets for Step up 3. Then went to Mac to have some bites. Wait for the time for our movies & we head in. Step up 3 is awesome. I think i can watch continuously without getting bored. 

After show, we get kind of crazy. Watched another show again. Haha. Grown ups! This show is hilarious. Some people in the cinema laughed from the start of the show till the end of the show. 

& guess what? 

The 2 movie we watched, both in the same cinema. Haha. All cinema 2. It was freezing cold in the cinema & the best part is both of us didn't bring jackets! Haha. 

After show went out of Amk Hub to get some warmth. But it was kind of drizzling. Walked to carpark to get car. & went over to Chomp chomp. Miss the chicken wing there. Ordered carrot cake too. 

I'm so full because of the chicken wings & carrot cake. Haha. 

Dear send me home after that. 

Didn't revise today for tmr's paper. Lucky tmr's paper is IWAD. Not programming. If not die! IWAD i'm almost prepared. I guess i will die at the Javascript questions. For programming, i still got the whole of Tuesday to study. Lucky! 4pm paper tmr. Before that still can take quick look at my notes. Phew. 

Alright, chat with dear awhile in msn & i think i shall hit the bed soon. 

有你的日子，第251天

Just finish shower. Just keep it short today..
Morning went school for revision lesson. 10-12. Then teacher decided to extend the lesson. So went for lunch first before continue lesson for another 1 hour. Since lesson extended. So didn't go to my sis house. As i was supposed to go her house & help her do some stuff.

After lesson, bused to habourfront & went to work. After work, went Seah Im as usual. Stayed for awhile & bused back home.

Waiting whole day just for the time where i could chat with you when you're so far apart from me. Thought i could chat with you to make my day better. But.. Where are you? Maybe you slept already, maybe you went out. I don't know. ): The only way to make it a little better would be, you'll be back in about 23hours.

Movies i wanna watch. Step up 3 & Grown ups & maybe Expendables.

有你的日子，第249天

Okay, today nothing much. Wake up early to prepare for exam. DCN Paper was still alright i guess? But still don't know how to do some question. Don't really have confident for this paper. Afraid that I might fail this paper. ):

After paper, walked out of school with Janice & co. Took bus to Bishan, to my sister house. As she bought Paul Frank Tees from online for me 2 weeks ago & finally it has arrived.

See the two Paul Frank's with specs? One of them is dear's. Initially i intend to get the same design & same color, Orange. But sad to say, it was too popular & theres no more stock for the color i want. So end up, got different color. ):

Back home after taking the shirts from my sister. Was so tired. Keep on sleep. But in between keep on wake up, bad dreams.

Thats all about it i guess? Nothing much today. Been kind of a moodless these days.

有你的日子，第248天

Tired tired.. Planned to wake up about 10plus today. So that i can go school early to start studying for DCN. End up, i was too tired. Went back to sleep until 12plus. Cause last night slept quite late. Then in the middle of my sleep, i wake up suddenly which i don't know why. Then start to have flu. ):

When i wake up, i was so tired & lazy to get myself prepare. But still, dragged myself to prepare to go school. Revision lesson from 2pm to 3.30pm. I was late for 15min. After lesson, continued to study until 7pm.

Left school, bused to amk to help mom to update her passbook & then head back home. Just finish bathing. Body feeling tired. Morning paper tmr. Finally, half of the exam is gonna be over soon.

Kind of a moodswing this few days. ):

有你的日子，第247天

First paper today. C.Maths. Woke up at 6plus today. Went to shower & get myself prepared. Went out about 7.30am. Look through my notes during the journey to school. Halfway reading, dear called. Asked whether i wake up already or not & did i bring my stuffs. Cause he called once before this & i didn't hear my phone rings.
Thank you dear. (:

Reached school, walked over to Sports hall. Was early & saw Janice. Chat with her awhile & time is nearing. So enter exam hall. Flipped through paper & the paper was surprisingly easy. But some questions didn't know how to do, as i wasn't really strong in that area. But i did count the marks. Haha. I think i can get about 60marks for the papers. Estimate only la. Finally, one paper down. 3 more papers to go!

After exam, called back home & nothing to eat. So went Amk. Was thinking what to eat all the way till Amk. End up i help my sis but food. Didn't get any for myself. Cause seriously don't know what to eat.

Reach home, watch show & then fall asleep. Until 5plus, kind of hungry. & still thinking of what to eat. Quite craving for Mian Xian. But home don't have already. So went downstair's ntuc to buy. Buy Veggie, crab stick, cheese tofu also.

So thats my dinner. Yes, its Tomyum again. Cause if don't cook with Tomyum, like no taste lea, abit 清淡. & today don't feel like eating too 清淡. So eat Tomyum again. =x

): I miss you..

有你的日子，第246天

Feeling tired now. ):
Today set my alarm at 9am. So that i can slowly prepare myself & then went out of house early to buy some food & KOI & then go my sister house. As i will be alone in the house to study & so i was thinking i might be studying there for the whole day, so i should get myself some food.

When my alarm rings, i off it & went back to bed again. Thinking that i still have time to sleep & prepare myself. 10plus, my sister msged me. Saying that i can't go her house already. Cause she needs to clean her whole house.
Then i went back to sleep again. Awhile later, Davidson msged me asking me if i'm gg school to study. Then he said he wants to study for tmr's paper. Since i'm still thinking of place to study, agree with him to go school to study.

Prepare myself at about 11plus. Then had my lunch. Just nice my dad gg to work. So dad send me to school. Reached school, went level 4 to find them. Sweeheng & the rest were there already. As the room was kind of small, & there were too many people. So we split into 2 groups. One group do past years paper & another group do their own revision. All the way until 6plus, they were kind of draggy & so i went off first.

Was craving for KOI the whole day & so went AMK to buy KOI. Queue was frigging long as usual. The only thing that is different was... I waited alone. ): Usually dear will be with me, accompany me to wait for it.
After buying, went Old Chang Kee to get some small bites cause i was super hungry =x
Bused home after that.

Reached home about 8plus, showered & cooked dinner. Tomyum again! Has been having it for 3 consecutive days. Lol. Didn't manage to finish Tomyum today. Cause not nice.
& so i spend the night drinking KOI & i haven't finish the drink until now. Still left 1/3 of the drink! But i'm so full already. Regret not asking for lesser pearls. Cause got feeling to eat more pearls today. Lol.

Feeling tired now. Got to wake up early for tmr's paper. Its a morning paper. Hopefully i'll be able to turn in early later.

I HAVE TO REMEMBER TO BRING MY ADMIN CARD & CALCULATOR TMR!! IF NOT GG! 

PLEASE REMIND ME!!!! 

Sunday, without you, again! ):

Okay, my plan to study for the day is somewhat ruined. Being woke up by mom about 12plus in the afternoon. Asked me to go AXS to help my dad pay credit card bill. I nodded my head then go back to sleep again. Then she came in & tell me they gg to AMK as dad wants to see doctor & ask me want to tag along or not. So that i can pay bill at AMK, don't have to cross overhead bridge to go opposite my house's AXS to pay the bill as it is still raining.

So i went to wash up, get changed up & had my brunch. Then went out with parents & nephews. Reached AMK, paid the credit card bills & i was super thirsty. Cause haven't had any drinks since i wake up. & am craving for bubble tea, end up went to KOI to buy milk tea. Its been so long since i had KOI.

After dad finish seeing doctor, drive to my sister house & then to my grandma house. Home at about 4plus. Was pretty sleepy by then. Chatted with dear online for awhile. Tomyum for dinner again. Right after eating, i feel so sleepy. Fall asleep for awhile & wake up at about 8plus hitting 9pm. Faster get up from the bed & take out my notes to study. Studied for almost 2hours. Stopped already. Continue tmr.
Will be going to my sister house to study tmr.

I think i'm abit crazy. I always want Exam to come ASAP! From the start of the month August, from the first day of this 3 weeks of holiday. Cause i want to end this exam ASAP! So that i can drop this big stone in me.
So please! Let 4th Sept( dear returning from Hongkong ) & 8th Sept 6pm (End of exam!) faster come!

有你的日子，第245天

Time checked: 2.43AM. Here to update dear's 'newspaper'. Yesterday didn't update. Dear says his newspaper stop printing liao. Haha.

Today, worked. Low manpower. & i'm deployed in gallery. Nice! Full house for both shows. But it was still smooth for me. After work, Went to Seah Im as usual. Gossip gossip/ chatted with Meifern, Aqilah, Redzuan, Aidil, Sham. Went off at about 11pm. Took train back home. Cause its faster to get back home. So that i can chat with dear online. Can't online using mobile as last night I changed my sim card back to Corby. Don't want use Omnia already. I think my Omnia spoiling liao. ): Wanna get new phone. Hopefully next year. When my contract ends. Iphone 4 maybe?

Reached home, online & chat with dear. Then he send request to webcam. I accept already then remember that his lappy no webcam & he didn't bring his webcam to Hongkong!! So meaning, he can see me but i can't! ): So unfair la.

& dear got Burberry Weekend from Hongkong for me! (: Been looking for this in Singapore but some says it dis-continued already. Though still see in some shop. Thank you dear (:

Oh ya, i guess i need to buy a new mascara soon. Start work = need to buy cosmetic soon & also = i need to stop being lazy & go Mary chia for facial often. *Boo* Why does M.A.C costs so ex! Oh well, i guess 一分钱一分货. Quite a good product to me. Being contradicting, i know =x

Thats all for now. Not working until 3rd Sept. Tmr or should i say later when i wake up, shall go study for my very first paper which is on 31st Aug.

Goodnight people.

有你的日子，第243天

Juat finish my dinner/supper from home. Mom cooked TomYum soup for me.

Woke up at 10plus today. Slacked until afternoon 1pm then prepare for work. Went out at 2plus & bused to Habourfront. Went up to Imbiah office to fill in forms, get uniform & name tag. Then went to ops room with Daryl.

Everything was almost the same. Nothing much change. All old staffs working today. Glad to see all of them.
Work was fine. Worked at gate 3. & i kind of still remember most of the stuffs there. Didn't forget much.
After work, went up to Imbiah office with Nicole, Meifern, John & Daryl. As Daryl driving. So don't have to wait for bus. Reason why i went up is to take my staff pass. As Anthony ask me to get it after work. End up, didn't get it! Asked me to get it in the afternoon. ): Shall get it next time.

After that, went Seah Im to meet up with the rest. Had cheese fries. Didn't eat much cause i know mom cooked TomYum for me. Gossip with the girls. Haha. Then they left. Sat down & chatted with Amir, Halim, Darwina until 12plus & went off.
Daryl sent Halim & me back. Halim first before sending me back. Thank you Daryl. Cause Daryl live quite near me, so its on the way.

Shall sleep soon.
Before i sleep,

Happy 8th Anniversary dear. 
I love you. 

Time flies, its our 8th already. Still love you as much. Nothings gonna change. 

Its our 8th, also 8 more days before you're back. ❤

有你的日子，第241天

Just had my refreshing shower & my right eyes is freaking itchy now! Arrrggghhh! );

Okay, woke up at only 1pm today. Of course in between my sleep, i woke up for awhile. Cause my mom wakes me up. Then head back to sleep again until 1pm. Lie on the bed until 1.30pm then went to wash up & cook maggie to eat. Wanted to go out to study but can't decide on the place.

Then mom ask me to help her go downstairs to help her get things & for that, she'll treat me bubble tea. Haha.
So helped my mom & also get bubble tea; Mango Red tea. (:
Reached home, Meifern called & said Anthony (supervisor) asked me to go back work immediately. As she helped me ask the supervisor whether i need to go for interview again if i want to go back work. So Meifern passed the phone to Anthony & talked to him. & so.. I'm going back to work tmr! (:
Called Ruby & tell her, also asked whether both Jena & her wants to go back to work or not. & they're coming back on Friday! (: Finally can get to work together again! Miss working with them.

Then decided to go my sister house to study. Prepared myself & drive to my sister house. Studied halfway & dear called. ;D I miss him so so much! Still got 10 more days! ): Studied until 7plus & start to pack up. Then Ryan, my nephew was having his dinner. Used my lappy's webcam & took his picture.

He so cute. Very good in talking. Haha. Went off after that. Drove to Amk, bank, to help mom update her passbook. Also went to Amk hub to get some hair clip. Back home after that. 

Reached home about 8plus. Super hungry. Had dinner then watch 9pm show. Finish show then go shower. 

Stomach very unwell now. Don't know why. After dinner, stomach don't feels good. ): 

I miss you dear. I know i've been repeating this. But can't help it. ): 

2 more days to our 8th ❤

有你的日子，第240天

Yesterday night had such a hard time sleeping. Planned to sleep at 12plus. End up, don't know why cannot sleep. Until 2am then sleep. Wake up at 10plus. Supposed to wake up at 9am to prepare & go school meet Janice & co. to study. But woke up late. Msged Janice says i'll join them after they had their meal. As the plan was to meet at 11am & have lunch together. But my mom cooked lunch & i woke up late, so decide to eat before heading out.

Went to shower & eat then head out already. Drive to school today. Before heading to school, sent my dad to work. Reach school, they still eating. Then don't know why suddenly talk about celebrity's age. Janice said Luo zhi xiang's age is 43. I was so shock. How can it be possible. Then Janice go google it. Haha. Actually is Janice calculate wrongly. We continued to be stalker. Go search Taylor Swift's, Jolin's, Jay's & so many celebrities's age,

Then went into the printer room to start studying. Study halfway Zhengyi called. Ask me why dear's phone cannot get through. Haha. As he don't know dear went Hongkong for work. He says dear leave silently. Lol. Then awhile later, dear called! He was having lunch. Chat awhile then went back study. Until 3pm, my mom called. So i start packing up & went over to Amk to meet my mom.
As she bringing stuffs to her friends then went to eat together.

(Thats the queue number for my mom. Was bored waiting for her to come out. So took this. Haha!)
Walked pass Polyclinic, & its still open, so mom decided to go for her appointment instead of tmr morning. So accompanied my mom to polyclinic.
Around 5 then went market to eat. After eating, went back to fetch my nephews.

Reach home, rest abit. Was kind of tired. As i was about to take out contact lens to shower, dear called (:
Talked halfway, don't know why can't hear him. So went to shower & missed his call.
Miss dear so much ):

I miss you!!

Dear called just now. Managed to chat with him awhile before he go shower.
Waited for dear to online until fall asleep.
Dose off for half an hour. Saw dear online. Chat only abit. Then dear don't know go where ):
& then he went offline suddenly. Wonder what he is doing.. ):
I miss him badly, very!! 12 more days, seems so far away.
);

有你的日子，第239天

Tired tired tired! Last night slept at around 12plus. As was quite tired actually.
Woke up by mom at 7plus. She thought i'm late already. But i tell her my lessons at 10am. Then went back to sleep until my alarm rings. Which is at 8am. Until 8.15am then wake up go brush teeth & shower.

Went out at 9am. Stomach wasn't feeling very well since yesterday. Everytime after eating, after that stomach sure not good. Reach school early. Rest in lecture hall. Suddenly flu came knocking on my door! Aircon spoil. Super hot! Until teacher came, projector also spoil. So shift to Blk M lecture hall.

12pm, break time. Ate at south canteen with the usual group of people. After that, IWAD revision & Java revision. Actually after IWAD feels like gg back home already. Cause was feeling very weak. Sneezing the whole day. But still decide to hang in there for the last one. Lesson until 4plus, early dismissal. Supposed to end at 5pm. Head back home after that. Feeling weak. It was raining heavily.

Reached home, rest abit. Dear called at 5plus. But dear call at a wrong timing. Cause i was in the toilet!! Haha. So dear said he will call me later. So i guess i'll wait. (:
As it was raining, drive mom to go fetch my nephews back home.

Finish shower & i saw this!

My right eyes become red. No wonder so itchy & my eyes feels so tired.
Cooked tom yum soup for dinner. As there's no dinner at home.
Just finish eating & now here to update my blog (:
I guess this week, almost everyday will be gg to school to study with classmates. Next week exam already.

& i badly want to watch Step up 3!!!
Counting down!
10 more days till exam!
14 more days till dear's back!
4 more days till our 8th ❤!

有你的日子，第238天

This blog of mine has become dear's 'daily newspaper'. Haha. Although i didn't update everyday =x
So as promise, i will update this 'newspaper' of mine everyday while he is away.

Yesterday, afternoon 2plus prepared & head out to Tampines to wait for dear to finish work. Then when we were about to leave the place, his colleague, Joan, asked to help her to buy charcoal with her & carry to taxi stand. As they're having bbq at night.

After helping her, went to get dear's car & drove back to his house. He showered & stuff, went out again. Went to his aunt house to pass his aunt things, chat a little while before heading to Jurong point. As dear wants to buy more working pants.

After buying, head back to his house to have dinner. & go out again. Went to the bbq with dear. By then its already 9plus. & we had trouble finding the condo, so reach abit later. Only went awhile cause the things ends at 10plus.

Head back to my house so that i can get car key from home. Then drove back to dear's house. Waited for dear at Esso petrol station. As he sent his colleague, Sandra, back first. Pump petrol & back to his house.

Helped dear to pack his luggage. This is the first time i help boyfriend to pack luggage. So dear, be honoured k!! Haha ;p
Rest awhile at his place, woke up at 3plus. Dear went to shower & stuff then head out already. Dear drove while i rest.

Reached airport, Terminal 2. Then realised we were at the wrong terminal. Should be terminal 1 instead. Lol. Cause i see wrongly. =x So took sky train to Terminal 1 & check in. Looked for his friends after that & awhile later, dear went in already.

So i went to take sky train back to terminal 2 & slowly walk to car park. Talking on the phone with dear while walking. Back home at 6plus. Showered & sleep. Sleep until 1 plus in the afternoon. In between keep on wake up to see if dear called. but don't have.
& then saw dear's msg in msn. Telling me he reach Hongkong already. (:

Been staying at home the whole day. On the day which i don't like most! Sunday!! ):
Luckily still able to chat with dear on msn. (:
Dear called me just now, in msn. But i went to the toilet & so i missed it ):

Dear 2 weeks, please pass on fast! & i know it will.
But... Its not even a day, i'm already missing dear, missing the presence of him.
5 more days to our 8th ;D

有你的日子，第237天

SIGH!! Dear flying off to Hongkong to work for 2 weeks!!! ):
& his flight is tmr 6am!!!!!

);

Hope this 2 weeks pass by fast!!!!

有你的日子，第236天

Oh well. Can't sleep again. & my blog has been quite dead. Not really exciting anymore =x
Anyway, got nothing much to do. So look up on horoscope. Haha.
So, here is goes for my horoscope, Pisces.
 NOTE: Quite Super long & wordy.


Pisces Personality
Pisceans are characterised by their emotional depth. They have such a vast reservoir of positive creative energy that they don’t even come close to realizing their true potential. They are too modest to admit their talent, and often underestimate themselves. No one has the ability to express true human emotions such as happiness, love, anger and forgiveness in his art as much as the Piscean. So he/she no doubt has talent, but there is a tremendous need for encouragement. Pisceans give their friends unconditional support when needed. They believe in the notion that a friend in need is a friend indeed. But this works both ways. They also need to be understood and helped when in need.

Pisceans are also susceptible to developing habits and then acting as if they will show themselves out. Eventually, it becomes so late that things go out of control, and the habits take a heavy toll on their personal and professional lives. Again, it is almost impossible for the Piscean to get out of such a quicksand and restore normalcy in life without the support and affection of close and loved ones. Friends and family might find this a little difficult than they might think because Pisceans tend to be a little deceptive, thinking that it is for everyone’s good. So the picture I paint is not a very rosy one – it would seem that it’s hard for the Piscean to even live normally without help. But it’s not like that. Pisceans have so much stuffed up inside them that it is hard for them to stay balanced. That’s the only reason why they need help.

In love, Pisceans fall very easily and quickly, but tend to make mistakes. And sometimes, the result is the worst. Thus, they can be summed up in one word – passionate – in life, in work, in love and everything else. Their kind and gentle side sprouts from this very passion.


Pisces Qualities and Characteristics
Pisceans have a tendency to get pulled in two opposite directions. This inhibits their decision taking capability. They are quite open-minded towards their work and personal life, and demonstrate an immaculate insight and vision in material, technical and spiritual aspects.

You have a particular artistic sophistication, which means that you have creativity with a polished edge. Your special characteristic is your love for beautiful things in life, and also a particular day-dreaming and inconsistent trait. You are too soft hearted and willingly help anyone in distress; this might also lead to problems to you because of your inability to say ‘no’. Even with the introspective and intuitive edge, you are moody and restless at times.

Some depressions and dissatisfactions might lead you to pity yourself and escape from the distresses in life through drug addiction or drinking. You have a great inner strength, you only need to exhume it. You share your resources with others, even money, and think that others should do the same. The boundaries of possession are sometimes invisible or altogether meaningless to Pisceans, thus turning some into forgers and embezzlers.

Qualities that make you lucky are caring, progressive, benevolent, and imaginative. Qualities that hinder your success are undecided, casual, not practical, and easygoing.

Pisces in Love and Romance
In this matter, Pisces are ruled by instinct and emotion. Pisces are not one to sit in a judge’s chair and think about the partner-to-be objectively – you are too romantic for that. What you do is rush straight into it, and think later. Ill advised, but when it comes to love, there is no bound to your emotions, you just cannot control yourself. This impulsive nature is greatly loved by all those you couple with, at least as long as the two of you are together. And this is how it works – when you are young, you have all the impulse and verve in the whole world and ‘leap before you look’ would seem to be the motto of your love life; but as life goes on, with all the cuts and bruises you have suffered in the name of love, you will learn to be cautious.

This issue eclipses all others in relationship matters for you. And the answer to this problem is simple – try to think practically. I know it’s hard for you, so whenever you feel a strong impulse, just count to ten – relax! When the situation tends to get a little too hot to handle and it feels like all that talk about self restrain is just not working for you, try to let go of it – take a time out. This is not the same as running away from your demons. Time has a way of clearing the mist and removing the cobwebs. When you are not in the proximity of your ‘lover’, you will be free from blinding emotions, and be able to think clearly about your coherence with him/her, and if it has a future.

Now, if you end up with the wrong person, it will be difficult for you to realize that in time and make amends. But why should you end up with the wrong guy/gal? An important factor here is your too-good nature. You are willing to go to any level, and make any sacrifice in order to make the relationship work. This attitude might attract many a people who are not really worthy of .. you! So there are quite a lot many things you need to learn, I’m afraid, the hard way. Good luck!

Pisces in Marriage
When it comes to marriage, I am assuming that the you, the Piscean, have found the right one for you after a certain number of trials and errors. Congratulations! Now you need to learn the ABC’s of married life. And the A is – Always maintain your identity in spite of the marriage. If it’s important for one to maintain his/her identity in a relationship, it’s even more so when it comes to marriage. There are those who say that after the marriage, there is no place for ‘I’ – the two I’s turn into a ‘WE’. But they are not you; you are you and you know that it is very easy for you to mould into your partner’s personality and become his/her mouthpiece. You can forget your own likes and dislikes to please your partner; and as much as you may seem to be doing all this out of your own free will, it is not good for your mental well-being. Suppressing your ambitions and pleasures is not good after a certain level.

On a lighter note, you are very easy to live with, even with your sometimes unorganizedand untidy way of life. Your partner may accuse you of being too casual about things that ought to be taken seriously, and not be totally wrong. But that’s you – you are not deliberately negligent, you just think there are more important things to do.

When it comes to parenthood, you are not negligent of your duties at all – you make sure you give your kids every opportunity to learn and perform. But you have a way of spoiling your kids – not by giving them to much material stuff and spending too much on them, but by giving them too much love. Nothing wrong with that, except for the fact that in your eyes, they can do no wrong. So when they actually do something wrong, like spoiling their grades, may be, then it comes as a rude shock to you. So with time, you need to learn how to teach your child a little self-discipline and the virtues of hardwork and honesty.

Pisces Friendship Compatibility
If you are a piscean, you will be a friend cherished and loved by all your friends. Not only are you ready to put a great deal of energy and time into the friendship, but you are also ready to listen and give a shoulder to cry on to your friends. You are always willing to make sacrifices for the sake of your friends. You make their problems your problems. So the good friends will appreciate all you do, and reciprocate in full measure, but there will always be the other ones looking out and trying to take advantage. And unfortunately, you are one of the gullible kind – you find it really hard to make out the honest kind of friends from the opportunists.
Now there is this creative and artistic side of yours we talked about.

This means that you like being encouraged by your friends. This works the other way around too – you find it easier to make friends with those who can take interest and sympathise with your interests, emotions and impulses. All and all, you naturally are inclined to get closer to someone who is one the same ground as you. In the whole broader picture, you are helping yourself gain in confidence and achieve whatever it is you want in life. There is the negative side to this too – you need friends who have interests similar to yours. So they might sometimes tend to feign interest in things that they couldn’t care less about – this might lead to awkward or heartbreaking moments.

Pisces, however need to make a conscious effort to get their personal life straight. You tend to be late on appointments, and then appear flustered and embarrased when you arrive. You are of course an excellent friend, one to be treasured, but your mistakes may get a little too irritating for your friends for them to be able to forgive you. A little discipline here would not go amiss. You are a great friend, but you also need to make it easy for your friends to go along with you.

Pisces Career and Money
Pisceans have a very characteristic set of needs and motivating factors, which seems quite different from those of other sun-signs. So, they need to take special care in choosing their field of work so that they can work towards the fulfillment of these needs, and making the most out of their professional lives. Pisceans have a strong sense of vocation, then need to put their heart and soul into their work. And when they work with this sort of dedication, they can be terribly let down by any sort of obstruction. They can work with very little pay, as long as they are allowed to derive the most from their job.

Another very important aspect of the Piscean way of life is believing in something, and making sacrifices for it. I have said that the Piscean can give up his/her career in order to look after the children, but now I say that the Piscean is also capable of sacrificing his/her hopes of getting married and raising a family for an important social cause, or a career in some form of art that he/she might be dedicated to. All the Piscean kindness and warmth is seen in their work.

This of course is a very noble and ideal way of life, but some Pisceans sometimes get caught up in the rat-race of life. They start doing what everyone else does, running after money and power and pelf like everyone else. But as and when they do it, they will surely realize that this way of life is not for their benefit. The hustle and bustle, and the noisy, tense atmosphere of a typical workplace is not the ideal hunting ground for them. They need to be left on their own, with no demands or deadlines to be met, and they will come up with the best, not with an aim of impressing anyone or accumulating anything, but just for the common good. So works the Piscean mind, and this ought to be understood most of all by the bosses, who tend to force things on everyone.

A special note on the great creative potential of the Piscean – most often it is wasted, unless backed by a very strong impulse. But even when there is the impulse, the talent needs to be nurtured and encouraged, lest it be lost in due course.


Alright, shall sleep now. Goodnight people.
Exactly 7 days from now, it will be our 8th ❤. (: