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Was feeling exhausted since yesterday night. I have no idea why as i didn't do much things but just felt so tired. Just feel like sleeping all the way if i could.

On monday, dear went Malaysia with Zhengyi to walk around. Left me alone in Singapore ): Didn't tag along cause i had to work that day. So didn't join them. Haha. Not because dear didn't bring me along. Haha. 

& dear bought me this.

Another key chain. As the one he gave me previously, the picture actually detach from the key chain. So dear made another one for me. Thank you dear (: I love it, really. 

Yesterday, Jieying called at night to ask what is my unit number & she said that she put in something in my letterbox. But it was quite late already so i ask my mom to pick it up for me when she go downstair the next day. So this morning when i woke up, my mom already put it at the side of my bed. & i saw this.

( This isn't how it looks like. Cause i opened already. & didn't know how to tie it back. )

Like i said, i saw this when i just woke up, so my mind was only half awake. The first thing that i thought was "Which malay friend of mine getting married?" Haha. Cause the colour of the envelope together with the ribbon tied on it, make it looks like its a wedding invitation card. Haha. 

Thank you Jieying for this. Although its not something expensive, not something very big. But to me, this is one & only. Even though is just a few color papers. But it doesn't matter. Its the content on those color paper that matters. To me, this is priceless. (: I've always love hand made/ D.I.Y stuff. It doesn't have to cost much but gift that comes from heart that matters. Thank you!!! (:

Still remember last time when i want to pass Jieying things or vice versa, & either one of us can't make it, we'll just slot it into letterbox. Its funny how to pass things like that. Cause it never cross my mind that letterbox is indeed this useful at times. Haha. I miss the old times. 

Oh ya, i've decided to quit my job. This month will be my last month & i'm leaving this place after 1year & 4months. This is my 2nd part time job & also its my longest part time job for now. I'm gonna miss this place so much. The fun we had, the people who worked together. All the crazy stuffs done together, will never be forgotten. Left with approximately 4 more days of work. ): 

Crazy week.

Its time for updates. Haven't got the time to update about my everyday life.
PS: Its gonna be a long post with little pictures. Because many pictures are with Jieying. & i haven't get it from her. So just bear with it alright! ;D

Monday, 15th March 2010. Met dear at about 1plus at Jurong East platform & took train to Commonwealth together. As we want to rent car for the week. But as we reach there, all cars were booked & I have to wait till 6pm then can get a car, Sonata. Its like the cab. Drove that car before when Halim rent that car the other time. Left we no choice but to be back at 6pm. Put deposits & then we went to get some bites, Long John Silver. Then we went to wait for bus & back to dear's house. Its really so rare to take bus with dear. Haha. It was raining so heavily that both of us got somewhat drenched. Running back to his house trying to avoid getting drenched. Haha. It was fun even though it was so damn cold & wet.

Head out to Commonwealth at about 6 with dear & went to get the car. Checked the car, pay the balance & off we go. First destination, Ikea. As dear wants to have hotdogs from Ikea. So we went there just for hotdogs. Haha. Went back to dear's house after that. As he wanted to take a shower. End up he play Texas Hold'em with his brother's friends while i stayed in his room & watched show.

Left at 10plus & back to my house. Showered & drove back to Jurong to meet up with Zhengyi. As i was somewhat hungry, craving for mac & plan was to play pool. So we drove to Bukit Timah after fetching Zhengyi. Had mac & then the feel of playing pool wasn't really there. So plan changed & we went up to Jurong Hill to learn my parking. As my parking still kinda sucks. Haha.

Hang around there for quite sometime & send Zhengyi back home. As we got no plans. Dear see me like sian sian like that & decides to go West Coast. Walked awhile & then send Dear back home. Cause both of us were quite tired actually.

Tuesday, 16th March 2010. Went to fetch Marissa at her house. Sent her mom to her workplace which is at Thomsom Medical Centre & then we went to Far East. Shopped around & nothing caught our eyes. Then Marissa realise that she forgot to bring her wallet. Drove back to her mom's workplace & get cash from her mom. Didn't know where to go & we decides to go 313 to take a look. As i haven't really walked that place yet. Don't know why but both of us just got so damn tired. Both of us keep on yawning. Seems like we took turns to yawn, non-stop. Haha. Went to Cotton on & Marissa got herself 2 tops.

As we were so tired, we decided to get ourselves coffee to keep us awake. Headed to this place (which i forgot the shop's name), sat down & had our order. I got myself Tiramisu Latte & Marissa got Hazelnut Latte (If i didn't remember wrongly). Also some bites. Calamari & Waffle Ice cream. The Waffle Ice Cream was awesome. The 3 scoops of Ice cream covers the whole waffle. For me, i think is for 2 servings. Both Marissa & me had a hard time finishing it. Settled bill & drove to Bugis. As I'm meeting Jieying, Wanfong, Eugene there. At first didn't know Kaizhow was coming. Received his msg asking me whether i'm driving. Called him up & he is still sleeping. Rushed him down to bugis, limits him with only 1 hour to reach. Haha.

When everyone reached, didn't know where to go for dinner. So Kaizhow suggests to go Little India to have indian food. Had Nasi Brani. I hardly eat there but i think It was awesome. Recommended to go there & eat. I will definitely go back there & eat some other day.

After eating, wanted to go Yishun for pool but then drove for almost an hour but we can't find our way. Then went to Sembawang, wanted to slack there & have the cake cut. Reached there, then dear called. & suggested to play pool at Bukit Timah. Ask them & all agreed. Drove to Bukit Timah & wait for dear to come. Went to Mac & had the cake cut. Thank you Jieying, Wanfong & whoever who shares the cake. ( As i didn't know who shared the cake.) All of us were so full & still have cake left. So, as usual played open numbers & 终级密码. Yeah, Kinda childish but we had fun. End up dear, me, Wanfong, Eugene finish the cake. Went up to play pool until 12plus. I was kinda tired already. So dear sent Eugene back home while i drive back to dear's house first. Wait for him to come back & park his car & then he drive the others back.

I went back home, showered & then went to meet up with Zhengyi & James awhile. Stayed over at dear's house as the next day we're gg to Malaysia in the morning.

Wednesday, 17th March 2010. Woke up in the morning about 8plus 9am. Prepared & fetch Zhengyi first. Parked our car at Jurong park there then went to get some small bites for our breakfast. Trained over to Woodlands & wait for dear's friend, Desmond & his girlfriend. It's his girlfriend's birthday that day. ( Happy birthday! ) Haha.

Reached Malaysia & went to take bus to Jusco, our first stop. Its the first time i take Malaysia bus. It seems like i'm taking roller Coaster. Haha. Cause the bus was so shaky. Feels like it may over turn anytime. Haha.
Reached there, find place to eat first. As all of us was quite hungry. Head in to this Hongkong restaurant to settle our brunch.

This restaurant to eat.

Seafood noodle

XO Seafood Fried rice. *Two thumbs up* for this.

Butter chicken with rice ordered by Zhengyi. Very cheezy!

Pork Rib fried rice.

Mantou with chili crab sauce. *I like this*

Was craving for some soup food. So ordered this. 

Yam Cake. Super salty!

Seafood Hor fun. Ordered by birthday girl.

Baked cheese pork rice.

& this is how it looks like when we had our stomach filled! Haha. The pictures above are grabbed from facebook. As it was taken by Desmond & his girlfriend.

After eating, we went seperate ways to shop around Jusco. Planned a meeting time & then Zhengyi, dear & me went to walk around. Dear got himself a earphone. Nothing caught our eyes there. So actually we didn't get anything from there. After meeting up with them, we walked over to Tesco, another shopping mall just beside Jusco. Same thing, we went seperate ways & planned a meeting time. Zhengyi wanted to get some bubble gum & we went to this supermarket. Hang in there for quite some time. Then walk a little & met up with them. Decided to go other place & took cab to City Square. Dear got himself 2 bermudas & i got myself a bag. Zhengyi & dear insist on giving it to me as a present but i rejected. Haha. Didn't really expect any present this year. All this is enough already. (:

Dear & Zhengyi wants to look for shade too. But then end up they didn't get any.
& its time for dinner! Took bus to Denga Bay for dinner.

Denga Bay.

A very nice & relaxing place. Ambience 5 stars i'll give.

Bandung, milk with brown sugar. Its sweet but quite nice. 

Black Pepper Chicken.

Sambal Kangkong.

Sambal Sotong.

Sambal Stingray.

Special fried rice.

Kampong fried rice.

From left: Zhengyi, Desmond, Desmond's girlfriend Laifoon, me & dear.

After eating, went to play at the fun fair there. Haha. It was funny how dear & Zhengyi play. 

& dear got this small minnie & micket cup as well as...

This dolphin. Haha.

Then it was quite late already, so we hop onto a cab & back to the custom. Back to Singapore, head back to dear's house first. Washed up & changed, went out to meet Zhengyi & James for a little while & then back home. Tiring day but i've enjoyed it. I hope everyone enjoys it too. (: 

Thursday, 18th March 2010. Woke up at about 12plus. Asked Jieying to help me print out some stuff. Went over to get it from her & then drove to Bishan to fetch my mom. As i have to go to NYP to get some form signed. I forgot to sign it when i post it out. Drive to NYP & get everything done. Drive back home, helped my mom to get jacket & send her to Serangoon Mrt station.

Drive back home, bathed & drive to dear's house. Then send dear to school, which is at MDIS. After that drive back to Amk to fetch Marissa, Eugene & Kaizhow. Planned to go Bedok to eat. Then took sometime to look for the food centre.

Purposely stick out the sotong while eating.

Our table of food.

Ate then met dear at Bedok. All of us wasn't really familiar with the place & things goes wrong. & i'm really sorry dear.
Marissa took cab with her friend to East Coast first. Then we drove to East Coast. Walked around, talked. When the clock strikes 12am, & Happy birthday to me! (:

Me & dear. 

From left: Kaizhow, Eugene, me & Marissa. 

& i realise this sequence. Do re me fa. Hahaha. If anyone knows what i mean. =x Haha.

Then went up to play one round of billard. & never did i know that i was quite accurate in billard than in pool. I have no idea why but maybe its just purely luck i guess. Haha. Thinks that billard is more fun.

After that send them back home. Then drive to Changi Airport. Walked around & actually wanted to find something to eat from Changi Airport. Nothing caught our eyes & end up gg back to Jurong to eat. After eating, went to dear's house to take my lappy & then home sweet home.

Friday, 19th March 2010. Time to return the car. Actually Marissa said that she will be accompany me to return the car but she got to accompany her mum so end up i got to return the car alone. Didn't really like to return the car alone cause i don't really like to go that place alone. Just feels kinda... weird. Don't know how to explain. Went out at about 4pm. Drove to Commonwealth. Returned the car & went to take train. Trained to Jurong Point, walked around a little while then went to dear's workplace to wait for him to off work.

Back to his house, changed & head down to IMM to have our dinner at Fish & co. After eating, went back to his house again. & checked movie timing. Called up his friend, Kelvin & Zhengyi. Went down to Plaza Singapura to buy movie tickets. Watched Alice in Wonderland in 3D. The 3D effect wasn't really amazed & the show was somewhat boring. But if were to choose between the storyline & the 3D effect, i'll choose the 3D effect to be the better one. I did fall asleep a few times during the show. Haha.

After movie, went to East Coast to play a round of billard. Then off we go back home.

Saturday, 20th March 2010. Was bored at home. Decided to meet up with dear. Went over to his house & had dinner with his parents. But i didn't eat much. As i wasn't really hungry. Watched show & called Zhengyi at 10plus. Went to Jurong point, had laksa. As i'm staying over at dear's place, didn't know what to do at night. So decides to buy red wine back & drink. Bought some snack back to eat while drinking too. So we watched show while drinking. & just nice when the show was about the end, we finished the drink.
Talked for a little while before we sleep. Its been really long since we have this kind of talks together. (:

Sunday, 21th March 2010. Woke up only at about 2plus in the afternoon. & when i wake up, dear wasn't around. He went to work already. Then it started to rain. It was so nice to lie on the bed with the bolster. Haha. Dear came back at about 3. Showered, eat & then dear went for basketball with friends. He sent me to Bukit Batok Mrt & i trained home. Reached home & rot my time away. Haha.

Phew~ Finally i've finish updating what happen for the past few days. Its really a long & somewhat wordy post. Sorry for the wordy post with so little pictures. Cause most of the pictures are still with Jieying. Haven't got the pictures, so i can't upload it here.

& I want to thank all those who have wished me happy birthday be it facebook, sms, face-to-face, calls. Thank you!! (:

& dear, thank you for bringing me to Malaysia, ensuring my safety & everything. Thank you for adding more memories. All this may seems nothing but its precious to me. Even though its a simple one, but it doesn't matter to me. As long its with you, i'm more than satisfied. ;D I love you! 6 more days to our 3rd! (:

Just 4 more days!

Yes, just 4 days more & i'm turning 19 ( Past 12am already!) Time flies.

& this week, i hope it is gonna be a fun week. Will be renting car tmr with dear in the afternoon.

Tuesday, meet up with Jieying & co. Wednesday, Malaysia trip with dear. Thursday, meet up with Marissa & friends.

Oh ya, its Amir's last day today in Songs of The Sea. He will be in Merlion from tmr onwards. Sad that he's leaving but no worries, we'll still be able to meet up in the island. (:

Alright, kinda bored so came to update a little. Nothing much for now.

I'm sorry.

I don't know what got into me. I just become moodless. I hate this part of me. Getting annoyed by this. I can't control this feeling.

I'm sorry. I know when i'm like that, you're double time this way. Yes, we agreed that no matter rain or shine, we'll sort it out. But sometimes, let me be a little selfish, hao ma?

Sometimes when a girl says don't look for her, she wants to be alone, don't want to affect him. But in her heart, she wished that he will still find her & be able to find her when she went missing.
How contradicting can a girl be. Somehow, i think this is also one of a selfish thinking.

Sometimes, i wished you are that kind where you can just stay with me without doing anything.
Sometimes, i think i really need a space on my own but with the sentence above takes place.
Sometimes...

All the sometimes... i still won't want it to take place, cause i don't want to see you gets affected by me. Although it doesn't make any different.

Trust me, i never want to push you away.

Chest hurts, feels like my heart is crushing. Why am i like that? What the hell is wrong with me.
Broke down.

I'm sorry.

This mysterious, unexplainable sadness inside me.

Yes, i don't know why but i got this unexplainable sadness filling inside me. It just feels that my heart is crushing, it hurts with a little sour-ness.

Speaking up, can be a good & a bad thing. At least for me. When i speak up, others will know me a little more. But always, never fails to have some negative things in it. Which hit upon the other party. I don't want this to happen but its inevitable. This is life.

& the same feeling came back again. Seeing the end, thinking of the negative. Afraid that when things goes wrong & i'm not in time to pull you up, but its others. Sometimes, i can't help but think of this. When everything seems to be right, here it comes again. I never meant to let you feel the loneliness you feel. I never want it this way. Cause it hurts me each time you're down & yet, each time i can't be by your side. Each time i think of this, my head feels like its contracting. It tightened up. I don't know why but it just happened this way.

When i can, i don't understand that all you need is just me. When i can't, i can't be by your side.
Sigh.

Probably i'll be fine when i wake up in the morning.
I'm staying strong. Fighting this unexplainable sadness with all my laughters.

& i wish ...
* I miss you badly. *

Time for a little update.

Ok, i know it has been real long since i update. Been having crazy weeks.
So crazy that i don't know where to start from.
So i guess i'll just summarize what i remember from my crazy weeks.

Of course, been meeting dear like everyday.
Basirun & Meifern rented car on 26th Feb 2010 night. They came to Seah Im to look for us. Waited for Basirun to come wait until our neck grows! Waited for like 1-2hours. Sent him to West Coast, as he want to bowled with Amir & Co. So Hazlan, Halim, Meifern & me drive to Bedok to eat, Halim drove. Ate & then 3 of them got to go back early as all of them got to work in the day. Meifern drove back to her house. Then i took over & send Halim & Hazlan back home. & so i got to drive back to West Coast to return the car to Basirun & i'm a road idiot. Just nice, dear was at Yck area. So went to fetch him, so that he can show me the way. 2 of his friends tagged along & then sent them back. Cause all of them had alcohol.

It has already past 12am & so its 27th Feb 2010. That marks our 2nd month together. & its the first time i drove dear around. It just happened unexpectedly. Basirun waited for quite long so he went to Commewealth. Drive there to fetch him & then send dear back home.
By then was about 5plus in the morning already.

Went to East coast with Dear one day ( I don't really remember the date already ), then dear saw this game where we have to play it with token & stuff. Didn't know how it goes at first & said that will go back there asking Zhengyi along to play together.

So Dear, zhengyi. James & me went there, & we played for the first time. That day was crazily lucky for both dear & me. Have no idea why but that day was the first time playing & we hit on their bonus. & we asked whether anyone hit it on before, but the crew there said no. So we're the first! (: Played another game & also we didn't really know how to play. But just unknowingly hit 2 jackpot. Haha. Play until 5plus in the morning. & i really had fun. (:

2nd March 2010, meet up with Jieying, Wanfong, Jasmine, Edmund, Eugene, Daryl. Went to Novena to have Korean food. Was laughing all the way while eating. All thanks to the guys. Haven't got picture from Jieying. Will upload it here when i got the pictures. Had ice cream after dinner. Didn't know where to go as they have no plans. They wanted to play pool at Amk but i don't really feel like playing there. So i decided to meet dear. Trained there with them. But the girls & Edmund alight at Amk while Eugene, Daryl & me continued the journey.
Been awhile since i gathered with them. When's the next one people?!!!

Abit lazy to update already.
Not forgetting, i'm still working even though i've been meeting dear like almost everyday.
& for now, i hope things changed for the better!!!

Its a wordy post. I'll update more pictures soon.